BECAUSE OF ME

Author: Helene
E-mail: H_Gjermansen@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: I don't own these characters; they belong to NBC and Sander/Moses productions. I promise to bring them back unharmed and not to make any money of this story.
The poem is called Ascension and it's written by Colleen Hitchcock.
PLEASE DON'T SUE ME, I'm just a poor student.

Oh, and sorry about any spelling or grammatical mistakes. English isn't exactly my strong side.

PLEASE let me know what you think.


And if I go,
While you're still here...
Know that I live on,
Vibrating to a different measure
- Behind a thin veil you cannot see through.
You will not see me
So you must have faith.
I wait for the time when wee can soar together again,
- Both aware of each other.
Until then, live your life to its fullest.
And when you need me,
Just whisper my name in your heart,
...I will be there.

I carefully let my fingers touch the handwritten letters. You wrote them more than 5 years ago. 5 years. It's hard to imagine it was that long ago. You wrote the poem on a birthday card, only weeks before... before Jack took you away. I remember it clearly, Tom. We were sittimg on the couch, you and I. We had so many plans; there were so many things we wanted to do. Once Jack was behind bars and all the guards were gone, our life would be a paradise again. We would live happily ever after. You and Chloe and me.

Chloe. I feel the tears burning. You never got to follow her to school for the very first time, never got to see her happy smile when she plays with her friends. Never get to see her grow up. She misses you, you know. Sometimes she calls for her daddy in her sleep. Thanks God, she doesn't remember much about that horrible night. Oh, Tom. Why did it have to be you? You didn't deserve it. You were gentle, funny, smart and sensitive. You were my first love. I miss you so much. Your smile, your touches, your kisses; you made me feel safe. I felt like we would be together forever. I couldn't imagine a life without you. I would have done anything to save you, but I couldn't. Nobody could. Tom, I miss you so terrible much. I should have been me. I'm the one Jack is obsessed of, not you.

Tom

It's a silent whisper in my heart, but you're not there. You're gone. And it's because of me.

* fin *

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